Never is a Promise

“Be as a bird perched on a frail branch that she feels bending beneath her, still she sings away all the same, knowing she has wings.” -Victor Hugo

One year, one whole year has passed and I am stronger than I ever thought possible. I have learned so much and I cherish the lessons, each and every one. No matter how many tears, no matter how afraid I may have been, no matter what I may have lost.

There will always be a hole in my heart, and I will never feel complete until I hold you in my arms again. You are my Sunshine, my only Sunshine.

Where I have been and where I am going, no one knows. All I can do is take what you have given me and take another step. I know there will be many more mistakes and a number of lessons along the way. You will always be in my heart and on the back of my mind. There are little reminders everywhere I turn, this is one more specifically for you. Never is a Promise, and you can't afford to lie.

Something Peculiar For Your Tastebuds...

I have a feeling tonight may be a bit random for all of us. Stay with me, we'll get through it.

As promised, Tyana and I went apartment hunting Saturday. Ok, not really... we were distracted by a fancy lunch at the Dodo and the glitzy window displays of Anthropology. In other words, a beautiful day. (Side note: It was a much-needed tangent of a day, because we had previously made up for our lack of "search" on Thursday. Many possibilities.)

Speaking of tangents, I have a few that are aching to escape.

"It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get."- Rene Descartes

Have you ever truly thought about our basic human instinct? Is it unnatural to be good, to honestly be a good person? I believe it takes work, and it is something we need to strive and work toward every day of our lives. I would love to trust in human nature, even more, I would love to believe in the integrity of all man kind. It's so sad, and yet so humbling to think of what primal creatures we are.

Please do not misinterpreted what I am trying to say. Yes, we do have good qualities amongst the terrible. And yes, you can stumble across a good dead without a lot of work. The truth is it is easier to lie and manipulate than to stand up and defy the popular vote. It is easier to turn away than to share your shoulder with a stranger in need. It is tempting to taste the forbidden fruit, knowing that it is forbidden for a reason. It is far more pleasant to pretend that reason doesn't exist, and you deserve a taste of the fruit. After all, you have earned it because you have been such a 'good' person. See where I am going with this?

"It may be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: it would be a jolly sight harder for it to learn to fly while remaining an egg. We are like eggs at present. And you cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent egg. We must be hatched or go bad."-C.S. Lewis

On a more jovial note.

“There’s a huge hole in the whole Flood drama, because anything that could float or swim got away scot-free, and it was the idea to wipe out everything, He didn’t say, “I will kill everything, except the floating ones and the swimming ones, who will get out due to a loophole.””-Eddie Izzard

I don't have much to go along with Eddie, I just wanted to point you in a different direction.

Please remember, you were pre-warned... :) Have a fabulous day!